Every time I ended up in bed with a new guy...
I'm 28 year old married woman from J&K. I was sexually abused from childhood by neighbors, school seniors, and family friends. But I never shared my experiences wth family. I adjusted to sexual abuse and used to see it as normal activity.
Only now I think it was abuse. My problem is that despite now knowing that it is wrong and abusive, I continue to have sexual relationships with new men. Also I started giving sexual satisfaction in return for favors while in college. I have continued to do so since then.
Can I change now? Can I leave it all? I tried many times but every time I ended up in bed with a new guy.