He took away my virginity, my soul and my respect...

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I met a guy five years back on fb. He instantly proposed me and I, since I don't have friends at all and introvert, I continued having a strong emotional bond with him.

We met a few times and I enjoyed spending time with him. But since I was already in a relationship, I tried to avoid his romantic gestures and focus on our friendship bond. But he was persistent in his efforts to let me know how much he loved me.

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Then one night we got intimate casually without any serious intention. I was left shattered after this since I have been suffering from severe guilty feeling till todate because I was convinced with his sweet coated words... Then he gave me a severe blow by disclosing all the dark past of my life to the outer world. I was completely shattered and I had no option but to leave him after this. Since then four years have passed and he tried to contact me three years ago. My emotional, stupid heart again melted in his sweet coated words and I became again emotionally attached to him. But he used me for a few one night stands and after screwing me up sexually, physically and financially, he again left him shattered without any trace.

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Anynymous 1 year ago

Just because someone played with your life doesn't mean that you have to kill yourself. You can talk to me about your problems. I hope I can help you out.

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Anonim 1 year ago

Just try to forget him. He is not worhty of your feelings.How can you still desire for his company?The main thing that you still want him and is under depression is that you don't have any friends.Just befriend some good girl.Or try to share some of your time with your beloved family members.Or try to get yourself engaged in reading some good novels.Be a strong lady. Don't ever try to hurt.remember how your mother and father raised you and how deeply they love you.And you will surely find someone who will love you whole heartedly accepting you completely irrespective of your past.A good heart will surely find good heart.Just try to mix up with the people.

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Anu 1 year ago

Its foolishness to die bcs of someone who dont deserve ur death. So concentrate on ur career. As time changes evrything will be on track.

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SJ Karthik 1 year ago

Dear, kindly note, this happened to most of us even for boys too but pain only for true lovers... So kindly don't do anything which hurts you. I'll promise bcz time will heal you... Kindly spend time with prayers at church or temple... Try to involve yourself with exercise to turn your body... You don't get sleep if you aren't doing workouts at days time... So do workouts for 3 hrs per day... like walking jogging skipping at a...try to Love to earn money and help others who suffers without it... Plz reunion with School friends and close one and don't open this topic ... then only you can forget easy... Plz takecare !

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Hope 1 year ago

And to answer your last question.. "What do I do??" Since you don't have friends at all, have a friend first. A friend who will understand you, who will listen to you, who will accept you AS YOU ARE. If you can't find one, you are always welcome.. I know it's hard to trust strangers at first but right now you need a friend to whom you can open up, express yourself freely. And i'd like to be the one if you give me the privilege. Once.. Just once.. for your own good.. Trust me and help yourself.. My doors are always open for you.. Facebook dot com/OneFriendForYou Message me whenever you feel like! I'm here to help you whenever you need me. You are precious, apna khayal rakhna. Please take care of yourself..

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Hope 1 year ago

You have been suffering the same loneliness as me. To answer your questions.. I'm suffering from severe depression and I just want to hurt myself. --> No, don't. Should I just jump off the roof and get rid of all these pain? --> No. Never. Please don't think of anything like that :-( Or should I confront him to know why he did this to me? --> No. He wanted pleasure, he got it and he's gone. Sadly, there's no point in facing him now.. Was he intended to come in my life just to take away my virginity, my soul and my respect, my money from me and then just leave me all alone by myself on God's good humour? --> No. He was not. All this happened because of some bad decisions. It happened because you met a wrong guy :-( Don't loose faith. Everything happens for a reason. All this happened with you, for you to become more stronger, a better person. And you have lost nothing! You are still pure as you were before all that.

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rajesh 1 year ago

hmm :(

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Robin 1 year ago

As I can understand from the details that you have provided, this guy appears to be expert in flowery talks. It is natural for introverts and shy people to look for friends and when they find one who encourages them and behaves in friendly ways it is easy for shy ppl to fall for the person,especially when the person is from opposite sex. I personally don't see any fault from your side. I have met such ppl myself. Also due to long 'friendship' that he developed with you,it was natural for you to get emotionally attached to him. So despite knowing that he is not a good guy the emotions have not gone because of the bond that had developed earlier. Also, everyone looks for company. Since shy ppl have less friends, it is difficult for them to get rid of such relations but definitely not impossible. Being a shy n introvert person is not easy. I know how it feels,myself being one. Hope u feel better. Is there anything specific you want to know, like how to forget him or get over him?

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Robin 1 year ago

Regarding the depression thing, I believe the reason is what this person has done. I have some friends who had similar cases but they managed to get out by making themselves busy with either hobbies or close friends who could genuinely understand and help them. I feel you can also move on. Lemme know if I can help

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