Her secrets and lies
M/23. I need genuine advice please don’t mock. It's long but that's the only way I can explain. Something about me first. I am a man of principles and come from a very traditional joint family which I can’t ever defy. So it starts when I was in class 6. I was a very shy and studious boy, couldn't even have a proper conversation with girls. But there was this one girl I really loved (yes I loved her from the first sight).
We gradually started talking and became friends, she was the first girl I opened up to and then became marginally better with girls, but I still avoided any unnecessary conversation with other girls (still shy and awkward to this date). By the time we were in class 7, we were very good friends and there was a growing romance between both of us. We were both popular in school, she was very outgoing and friendly and I was, well a studious nerd. She was in a relationship with a guy (let's call him A) and she told me about it. In class 8, one of our mutual friends told me that she was planning to propose me. I knew we were too young for something so serious (I always wanted to be with her but I also wanted it to be flawless). I had made her clear several times that I will only get into a relationship after class 12 when I can really take decisions about my future. Also I knew she was already in a relationship, and I didn’t want to turn her down or ruin things, so I stopped talking to her and gradually drifted apart.
From class 9 to 12, we had minimal contact and she despised me. I was okay with it ( felt like I deserved it). At some point during class 11 she got into another relationship (Lets call him B) After class 12, I took an year gap and went to another state for prep, I was cut off from everyone during that duration. She joined a college for her UG. She contacted me again and we talked over phone 3-4 times (strictly as friends cuz I knew she was in a relationship with B). I never contacted her from my side or tried anything further cuz I knew that would be wrong. In 2013 I joined a college in Mumbai. I got back in touch with my friends including her.