I can't spend with him the whole life but I really want it
I am 18 female. I always ran from love whenever it came to me... the reason is my family. I have some issues going on, cant run from my responsibilities. I met a guy in fb.
We came in touch, same city, same life style, everything was same between us. Slowly we started meeting. I wasnt aware that one day a boy like him who never made a gf in his life, who always considered love waste would fall in love with me. I was shocked cauz even i didnt have a bf even though i am good looking.. many boys came in my life but i didnt accept them, cauz they were all fake. But this boy was real. I stopped talking to him. In a hope that he will change, cauz i didnt want to give him hopes nor wanted to say my reasons. But deep down i knew i was falling for him. I stopped myself anyhow, but he didnt.
He is like 'if it's not you,then no one else'. He went into depression. I didnt have any other option rather to talk to him. He says 'i dont want anythng, i just want you to be as we were before we fell in love'. I did it.
He is happy now, but one question keeps on going thrugh my mind "till when will this continue?". No answer. I did everythng with him just to hate me. So that he will distance himself from me. He didnt, he is such a good guy. I love him. I am confused. I cant leave him nor i can stay, cauz i cannot go against my responsibilities, come what may! I wanna spend my whole life with him, but i cant. I feel so bad.
Plz, help me!