I fell guilty about my past
Am a girl extremely career focused, an extrovert and had so many friends mostly boys. But when it came to the topic of love I never had or thought about a relationship. When I completed my 10th class I started my own fb account. He was the first stranger I spoke to, I was so much attracted to him, he was 5 years elder to me, it was all magical. This was wat I thought, but I was being so dumb and blind then.
Now I understand...
He proposed me within 1 month of chatting, I too accepted. As all my friends had bfs, I was thrilled when he proposed me, then after 10 days, he forced me to take him to my home, he blackmailed me that if I didn't, he'll break up wid me, so out of fear I agreed. In my home he tried to get physical wid me by starting to make out with me but I haven't experienced such things so I started crying and he stopped touching me and went out of my house.
After 10 days he stopped talking with me and eventually broke up wid me saying I was good for nothing and was kiddish, innocent blah blah blah which broke me completely.
I cried for 2 whole years degrading in my studies, I gave upon my health career and everything. But when my 12th results where out, an old friend of mine (a Senior) talked wid me, helped me to choose an engineering college and brought my old self and after some months he revealed his love for me, he was in love wid me for 3 years, but out of fear I didn't accept.