My wife's sexual past is bothering me.
Since 2012, I'm in love with a friend of mine. She had a boyfriend in college. But I was ok with that. I didn't confess my love to her as I was struggling with my career that time. She also loved me that time (I later came to know that from a mutual friend). I was busy with my studies and didn't contacted her frequently.
I proposed her in 2015 and she accepted. She told me that a friend of her has asked her for marriage but he couldn't convince his parents so it didn't work out.
Later in June 2016, I found some disturbing pics of them in her phone. I was shattered because she hid each and every thing about it from me. She had shared bed with him multiple times but didn't had sex. I asked her if this was all she had. She said yes. I forgave her.
We got married a few months back and now I found some videos and Sk**e chats that proves she was lying. I asked her about it and she said she hid it because she didn't want to lose me.
Now I have a sexual image that is disturbing every now and then. I can't trust her fully. Though she loves me a lot and is faithful to me now but I can't let go of all this from my mind and it's making my life a hell.
I'm so disturbed that I can't focus on anything. I don't know how to tackle with all this.